Hello everyone. I am back to work today after a total of 100 days of maternity leave, I am back as a working mom – meaning, I have double work now. I am well but not too enthusiastic to drive to work this morning and hating the fact that nothing from my closet fits me properly (the maternity pants are too loose and the pre-pregnancy clothes are still too tight) but otherwise, I am ok health-wise.
I don’t want my maternity leave to end. I am in the state called ” I’m covered in drool and I like it” plus who would ever want to come out of the uber awesome stretchy yoga pants?
Seriously, I am terribly missing Benjamin and wondering what he must be feeling right now. I was too afraid to call home and ask my husband if baby Ben is crying. Afraid he’ll say yes, afraid I might hear those familiar screams violently refusing the bottle. I sent him a message asking if the baby is ok and he replied, “yes, he is ok”. I feel he was just trying hard not to make me too anxious.
But I am still anxious.
Benjamin still doesn’t suck the plastic nipples well. He still nibbles it and cries while doing so. Everyone says, “oh, he’ll eventually suck when he’s hungry!” (it hurts every time I get that remark – which mostly come from my husband). In short, we are not ready. It’s like going into battle unprepared. He doesn’t latch on the plastic teats even if he is hungry. His caretaker uses the medicine dropper!
Pristine had been worried of the whole mommy-going-back-to-work-what-will-happen-to-the-baby thing that she has volunteered to bottle train him.
At least it’s already Wednesday today. Baby Ben would only have to ‘suffer’ today and tomorrow then I’m off on Friday and will be having a bonus off on Saturday too (Islamic holiday). I hope this gets easier everyday, for both of us, mostly, for him.
I am typing this at work, my mind and my heart left at home.