I’ve just come back from four days of staying at home celebrating the Eid holidays by eating, sleeping and watching TV. I swear I’ve created a dent in the sofa. While I was busy making my butt bigger, my pregnancy journey progressed – I am now on my 32nd week.
That figure stopped me right there.
Out of 40 weeks, I’ve completed 32. Life changing moments will soon come. These four days had me pondering on a lot of things surrounding this whole baby #2 thing.
Honestly, the idea of having two children soon hasn’t kicked in yet. I’m excited, don’t get me wrong but at some point, I have not imagined the transition from having one kid to two. And that will happen next month. Next month!
Then I think about Pristine.
She had been the center of our world (my world) for almost 8 years. I enjoy our little talks, those random hugs and wet kisses. Those alone time we have lounging in bed, all the time and attention just for her. Somehow I feel that with a new baby coming, I won’t be there for her as much as I want to. If you’re a mom, you know what fatigue and sleep deprivation can do.
But I promise myself I will swim through the struggles of being a new mom again. I don’t want to let her down or feel left out!
I get furious when people around her tell her: “Oh your mommy is having a baby, you won’t be that special again.” (Believe me there are mean people who say this!)
I get scared she might believe that crap and it makes me sad because somewhere along the line, she has transformed from being just a daughter to that “little best friend” I couldn’t live without.
I hope nothing could change that.