I got my last blood chemistry result last week and it showed that my Beta HCG level has returned to zero, meaning I’ve got the whole ectopic pregnancy-induced abortion/miscarriage behind me. It’s a relief, mostly because physically, I wouldn’t go through those needles again anytime soon and emotionally, I am ready to move on.
Thing is, I’ve been told that because of the Methotrexate (MTX) shot I was given, I should not get pregnant for at least SIX months because the MTX shot ripped off my body of the essential nutrient folate, needed for the development of a new life.
For someone who really wanted to have another baby, pushing 34 in a few months and had difficulty conceiving this past few years, six months is a gruelling wait. With exact calculation, we could only try to conceive at the beginning of January 2011. IF ever we’re successful on the first try, we’ll have baby #2 before the end of next year. If not, well…*insert big sigh here*
There are people around me who’ll tell me in a light as a feather way, “Don’t worry, you still have time. You’re still 34!”
But take this: human gestation is 40 weeks (roughly 9 months). It simply means, if you get pregnant on January, you’ll have a baby on October, February conception will result in a November baby, March will be December bundle and so on and so forth. If we are not successful after March, then there simply won’t be a baby for the whole of 2011! And then that’s the year Pristine turns eight years old (and me, 35).
How will she cope with having a sibling with a very big age difference from her?
Some would say, “In this generation, women at 40 or 45 are giving birth to healthy babies!”
Well, thanks for the info but I do not want to be a mom again at 40 or 45, when Pristine is what, a teenager already!?
The babe on the photo above is Pristine, taken when she was still a blob in 2004.