It doesn’t get easier

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So I really thought this is it. Some symptoms were there – most noticeable of which was the hard core intuition and dizzy spells. My emotions climbed up to new heights and I couldn’t stop smiling. One more day and I’m gonna buy that stick to check.

Then it’s a false alarm again. I hate this waiting game, the expectations. More so, I am starting to hate this battle that seems impossible to win. A battle where I don’t know if there is even a “right way” to fight or that I should even “fight” at all.

I want to get off this rollercoaster ride. I just can’t do this every single month.

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12 thoughts on “It doesn’t get easier

  1. Oh Grace, I’m sorry.
    You know, I was told I would never have kids. When I met my ex-husband I wanted a baby so much. Every month I didn’t get pregnant I cried (even though I knew I was infertile). Then one month I felt so tired and since I wasn’t regular I wasn’t overly alarmed. I finally went to see the doctor and I was pregnant.
    No it was not easy and since it was my first pregnancy I was just amazed that it had happened at all, since they said it never would.
    I’m sorry that it didn’t happen this month. But give the medications time. And don’t give up just yet. You are so young and still have plenty of time.
    Hugs, hugs, and more hugs!!!
    .-= Maribeth´s last blog ..Springtime Colds =-.

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  2. Yes, you truly ARE on a rollercoaster–mind & body! Know it’s hard, when you want something to happen w/all your heart & soul…….but hang in there! One of the best pieces of advice I’ve EVER heard from a FABulous Ob-Gyn was – “Try to relax!” (I know, that’s easy for her to say – but she REALLY delivers a HUGE number of healthy babies!) Enjoy your little girl, have fun w/your wonderful family and I know you’ll have a new little one on the way in no time! 😉

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